A Big Blob

“Sometimes I feel like a blob —I don’t know who I am or what I’m here for. I can’t seem to get identified.” ~ Ethel Barrett in her book Sometimes I Feel Like A Blob

Who of us during this midlife divorce recovery journey haven’t felt like a BLOB at one time or another? I felt unsteady and unsure of myself on just about every level. In fact, I was embarrassed. I wondered if anyone really liked me. My self-esteem was at an all-time low. I felt just about every negative thing about myself I could think. At certain times (especially when I was tired), I felt like a blob of nothing. I met with a RADICAL Woman the other day, and she said at one point she just all of a sudden thought to herself, “Why am I letting the opinions and bad actions of one other person in this world destroy me or my life? He is just one (misguided) person. There are billions of other people in this world. In my own realm of influence, a lot of them actually like me and care about me and love me. They appreciate me.” Life is too short to waste any time pining over someone who doesn’t get it. Who will probably never get it. There are too many people who do get it, and you’re one of them. We can all attract others who know who they are and why they’re here. In fact, we can help other people realize why there are here and how very important they are. When I get busy shining my light, my own world is brighter and more colorful. And when I add my unique, God-given spice to whatever I’m doing, the delicacies of this feast of life taste better than they’ve ever tasted. And I have a clearer view of who I really am.

”Let me tell you why you’re here: You’re here to be salt-seasoning that brings out the God flavors of this earth. If you lose your saltiness you’ll be thrown out with the garbage because you won’t be doing anybody any good. Here’s another way to put it: You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. Shine! Keep open house! Be generous with your lives! Matthew 5:13-16 (The Message, paraphrased)

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