First Love

Everyone longs to give himself or herself completely to someone — to have a deep soul relationship with another — to be loved thoroughly, and exclusively. But God, to a Christian, says “No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone – with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me – to having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone, discovering that only in me is your human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me – exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things – keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM. Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait. Thats all.

Don’t be anxious. Don’t worry. Don’t look around at the the things others have gotten or that I have given them. Don’t look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away at Me, or you’ll miss what I have to show you.

And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would dream of. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready (I am working even this moment to have both of you ready at the same time) — until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and is thus the perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. Believe it and be satisfied.

Author Unknown

“But seek ye first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all
these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33

“I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to
be content whatever the circumstances.” Philippians 4:11

Discussion topic:

When we are worried and anxious and lonely and broken-hearted, it is difficult to be patient with God’s perfect timing. Are you trying to rush things? Describe your thoughts in the comments below.

  1. This is so powerful of a statement and so very true. Thank you for sharing this with me it was just what I needed tonight
    Thank you

    • This is so good and such a needed reminder as we face rejection and all of these chaotic emotions walking out our situations. It is good to look toward the promise of our future but to find all our fulfillment in God alone. It’s the only way to be whole and truly healthy and that is my greatest desire. But I needed this reminder so thank you for these words of wisdom.

  2. I absolutely love this!!!! Thank you for this blog. BL

    • Very powerful words and so important at a time when we feel broken.
      Thank you

    • I’m not even divorced yet and an old boyfriend is wanting to become intimate. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and Bible verses. I do have to find peace with God and myself before I can find the right man. A good friend said, I am still in the trauma phase and my job was to take care of my self and my son. I appreciate you and this group more than words can say! Hugs, Marta

      • I’m not even divorced yet and an old boyfriend is wanting to become intimate. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and Bible verses. I do have to find peace with God and myself before I can find the right man. A good friend said, I am still in the trauma phase and my job was to take care of my self and my son. I appreciate you and this group more than words can say! Hugs, Marta

  3. I have not rushed anything. I have been seeing someone. We have been going out for a few months, just getting to know each other. This happened out of the blue but it has been nice to have someone my age to talk to about things and life in general. I have no idea where this is going and I have no plans to rush anything. If it’s meant to be then it will be.

  4. I was in a place of rushing; looking at how long I’ve been divorced and my was-band has remarried and it kinda makes me feel like a loser. I often feel like I’m in a secret competition with him. I don’t want to seem unhappy or that I am at a complete loss since we’ve been divorced but that’s often what it feels like. Just this week though, I’ve found myself quiet; being able to say to God, “God, I don’t like where I am, I am sad about my divorce, I am sad that I am not with my partner anymore, I don’t know what you have planned for me, I don’t want to be single or without a companion for the rest of my life but if that is what you want for me, please give me your grace to endure, emotionally, physically, sexually, spiritually” I overheard Nicole C Mullen’s testimony last night while I was up all night and I think I found some similarity in my own experience. I prayed and fasted for my marriage to be rebuilt, I had heard so many encouraging words and prophecies and so when the divorce happened and when the glimmer of hope was shattered to pieces as I learned that my was-band had remarried, I think I stopped trusting in the things about God that I once did. As Nicole said, I had trusted God or thought I trusted God with my marriage and look how that turned out, so the love-life/intimacy part of my life, I was not going to trust him with anymore, I was going to make my own decisions about that, so I feel justified in sleeping with my was-band. I’m learning to do better, God is my helper!

  5. Hello, still learning my way around here and not sure where to post this but it’s something I wrote and finally shared with him, I refer to as just the letter X. We are in the process of a divorce, he is the petitioner. I was blindsided. I found out about his affair and asked him to leave but I didnt even know what our next steps would look like and then I was hit with the divorce.

    Here is my poem… if you want to sgare your thoughts its fine but this really is written based on the facts of our relationship. (25yrs)

    Tell The Truth

    Tell them how we met, January of 1998.
    You offered me your your hand, inviting me to dance
    And before I left for the night,
    you asked how you could reach me.
    A true heart’s kiss filled with colors and magic,
    The 25th of March,
    You stole my heart
    And told the world I was Your Girl.
    Roses by the masses and love bombs galore,
    I couldn’t imagine how much more love you would pour.
    Then in mid-July, just sitting at a park,
    you took my hands, enclosing them inside yours
    completely covered
    like you were protecting mine,
    You petitioned for GOD to hear your prayer
    To someday make me MRS. Forever Yours.
    Years later, We married in a Holy Church
    Vowing to always keep GOD first.
    I gave you a new life,
    my “personal all,”
    Children to love
    Together we proudly stood tall.
    We made our “family feel safe”,
    We engraved the words “Rock Solid”
    Upon our hearts, mind and forever home.
    Seventeen years I thought we were going so strong.
    Blessed with a new baby
    We really had it all.

    A huge mistake was made, the longer it stayed hidden
    The more destruction and anger you held in,
    along with all the secrets
    were quickly unleashed.
    When I told you what I discovered
    And asked how could you do everything that I already knew.
    Cowardly, you ran away and
    Did not face things like a man.
    You seem to think it’s easier to just run–run–run,
    Rather than to just have an honest grown up talk.

    You would rather creep further into the dark than
    Remember your little family
    is the Light of Your Life.

    “MI VIDA”
    Is what you would always say
    But now your selfishness and addictions have taken over
    And keep you going even further away.
    You entertain yourself with evil and
    Don’t even realize that you have compromised
    Your eternal life,
    Why can’t you see you are on a long hard road to no where.
    With us you could go anywhere.

    You will always be connected to us
    We circulate through your veins
    Even though you won’t confirm its true.
    Sadly you don’t even know,
    You cannot out run from a broken family, damaged life,
    or deeply wounded heart,
    GOD really made us Forever Yours.

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