Darwin Buker

@darwin-buker

Active 1 year, 10 months ago
Sorry need to vent again I am so sad and have been crying for hours why do they need to get our guard down then knock us down again I am getting tired of getting back up am feeling like just staying down it would be so much easier tried of crying of the panic attacks I just want to feel better and it seems so far away sorry for the down post I […] View
  • Darwin Buker posted a new activity comment 1 year, 10 months ago

    Thank you for your kind words and advice the dr gave me some sleeping pills and some adavan for those day days when I am a complete wreck this is such a hard journey that my family doesn’t get so I really appreciate all of you beautiful people

    • We are here for you. This journey is so tough and you are right, family doesn’t quite understand. We need to be in a community of woman who share this same pain. Some other members and I want to hold a group thread on workbook one if you want to join in. Let me know.
      Have a great night, do something good for yourself.

    • So glad that you are getting the physical help that you need Darwin, now the group and all the ladies in it can help you with the emotional support that you need going forward! Take care and each day is a new day to start afresh. Be kind to yourself and above all, don’t give up!!

  • Darwin Buker posted a new activity comment 1 year, 10 months ago

    Thank you for the advice I have an appointment to see my doctor

  • Sorry need to vent again I am so sad and have been crying for hours why do they need to get our guard down then knock us down again I am getting tired of getting back up am feeling like just staying down it would be so much easier tried of crying of the panic attacks I just want to feel better and it seems so far away sorry for the down post I…[Read more]

    • I know your pain and it seems all to insurmountable…but just breath…breath…breath! I take anxiety meds to help me through those tough times as it calms me down and allows me to to just concentrate on getting through the day! Each day is different and a new start. One day at a time and one foot in front of the other. Try and close down any…[Read more]

      • Thank you for the advice I have an appointment to see my doctor

      • Darwin, I know how you feel. Sometimes everything becomes paralyzing. I hope your mind is settled and you are having a good day. Our good days make us stronger and help us grow and move forward. Every day I try to do something for myself. Pick something and try it.How did you doctor appointment go?

        • Thank you for your kind words and advice the dr gave me some sleeping pills and some adavan for those day days when I am a complete wreck this is such a hard journey that my family doesn’t get so I really appreciate all of you beautiful people

          • We are here for you. This journey is so tough and you are right, family doesn’t quite understand. We need to be in a community of woman who share this same pain. Some other members and I want to hold a group thread on workbook one if you want to join in. Let me know.
            Have a great night, do something good for yourself.

          • So glad that you are getting the physical help that you need Darwin, now the group and all the ladies in it can help you with the emotional support that you need going forward! Take care and each day is a new day to start afresh. Be kind to yourself and above all, don’t give up!!

    • I get you! I was there on sunday feeling like a blubbering mess…on my knees praying to God sobbing my eyes out. Then flat on the floor starring into space. Probably had drool coming out my mouth…Just feeling dead. Then its been days of self talk and now backup again…

  • Darwin Buker posted a new activity comment 1 year, 10 months ago

    Thank you for your kindness

  • I just wanted to say thank you everyone out there and you all are beautiful people and deserve the best. I finally did it I wrote a good buy letter then cried my head off but it was a small step forward and I got the lawyer to start child support papers it was overwhelming and scary as it now seems so finial thank you for just letting me vent to you

    • Taking steps is always hard but nothing changes if you do nothing. So I always use – when the uncertain future looks better than keeping things as they are, then I know that I have to take that step. I pray. In my meditation, I try to feel the future with each scenario, and then I can tell which one gives me the most peace. That’s the one I know…[Read more]

  • Darwin Buker posted a new activity comment 1 year, 11 months ago

    Thank you so much for your support it is really appreciated

  • Darwin Buker posted a new activity comment 1 year, 11 months ago

    I feel the same I feel that at least the pain would be constant then done verses knowing he is moving in with out me and keeps bouncing back back to our marital home where all his stuff is still acting like life is so fantastic your not sick or crazy your just trying to survive

  • Darwin Buker posted a new activity comment 1 year, 11 months ago

    I am so sorry I am new and only 18 years of marriage but mine did the same and i know what your feeling please don’t think your stupid we are all doing the very best we can with what we have been delt I don’t know you but I know you are a wonderful person and deserve all the best

  • Darwin Buker posted a new activity comment 1 year, 11 months ago

    Thank you so much I really need that today I found out he’s buying all her kids new beds and is taking her to the same resort he took me and is still not paying child support was feeling so down today then I read your message and it so mice to know there is people with good hearts out there thank you

    • That is truly awful. Make sure to keep notes, especially since he’s not paying child support. The 180 these guys pull is just astounding. There are many good hearted women here who want to support you. I suggest you go to the Forum (upper right, click on) to find more stories about how we’re all coping. All the best, Juno

  • Darwin Buker posted a new activity comment 1 year, 11 months ago

    I just wanted to say I am so sorry you are having to go though this it’s so hard

  • Ho o am new here and I don’t know what I am looking for I guess it’s just some one to talk to that gets the pain. My husband of 18 years thought it would be fun for him to get a girlfriend. I am not dealing well the pain embarrassment and lonelyness is so overwhelming and breath taking. Don’t know how or where to start putting my life back toget…[Read more]

    • Hello Darwin,
      I’m so, so sorry that this has happened to you. When I come to the forum I’m always sad to see new women here. I welcome you with open arms, but I know what it takes to come here and the pain is so deep and overwhelming. Please don’t think you have to have all the answers right away. When we first are hit with a cheating husband…[Read more]

      • Thank you so much I really need that today I found out he’s buying all her kids new beds and is taking her to the same resort he took me and is still not paying child support was feeling so down today then I read your message and it so mice to know there is people with good hearts out there thank you

        • That is truly awful. Make sure to keep notes, especially since he’s not paying child support. The 180 these guys pull is just astounding. There are many good hearted women here who want to support you. I suggest you go to the Forum (upper right, click on) to find more stories about how we’re all coping. All the best, Juno